{"id":3992,"date":"2022-05-21T23:43:59","date_gmt":"2022-05-21T22:43:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/?p=3992"},"modified":"2022-07-17T19:06:44","modified_gmt":"2022-07-17T18:06:44","slug":"what-are-you-soo-scared-of","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/index.php\/2022\/05\/21\/what-are-you-soo-scared-of\/","title":{"rendered":"What are you soo scared of?"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">As a 23 year old young man (old boy, felt truly), destiny took me to work in the home of the dying destitute. On the way to Thailand, we were in Calcutta,  and, was really struck, by the way some volunteers described  the work, so a month later, returned to volunteer.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-full is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/BFDF106C-B1C6-4C64-BCBF-6C641B021D6A.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-3997\" width=\"455\" height=\"324\"\/><figcaption>The type of experience, that cannot be explained.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\"><p>Let Every Action Of Mine. Be Something Beautiful To God.<\/p><cite>Mother Teresa (from picture in hall)<\/cite><\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">After just days, all the fear was gone,  and, yet more, though I couldn\u2019t articulate it, and still can\u2019t. In that hall I got the vaguest exposure to Samadhi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">This spirit was such. That joy was the feeling into Death, for many amongst them. Nothing like I had envisaged.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">So, the main point, during this time, of no fear, no hope for them, no expectation of experience\u2026 lies the spirit of the godhead, though as a young man I was Atheist, still now have no bondage to Religion or thought school, but feel much differently after decades of reflection.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">So, intoxicated by this unexpected elation, one day was free from duty, so offered Coconut Oil Massages, one lovely spirited man, very slim, was getting a nice shoulder and back rub, when the sister came over, \u201dNo gloves, no gloves\u201d in a hurried and stressed voice.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Again, she repeats, \u201dNo gloves? This man has AIDS, is dying of AIDS, why are you not wearing gloves?\u201d Very concerned.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Just shrugged. Was worried about the stress her tone was creating, nothing more.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph\"><em>Back then, had no travel or medical insurance, was alone in Calcutta, barely a man, no luggage as stolen 7months before, was free and almost completely fearless\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"Nirvana - Jesus Doesn&amp;apos;t Want Me For A Sunbeam (Live On MTV Unplugged, 1993 \/ Unedited)\" width=\"525\" height=\"295\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/bVjeYbRmkQ4?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><figcaption>Night time, would wander streets, or relax, listening to this Album\u2026 paradox.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">So, I am supposed to fear this Virus? This War? These Demons projecting louder and louder into everyones lives (Those bonded to media).<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">You are better than that? Society, you truly are.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Anyway, back to the story, one day, my bravery was challenged to the extreme\u2026.After a few weeks there, a sister comes to me and says \u201dyou are a kind one, can you help?\u201d Gushing at her praise, felt I could handle anything. \u201dOf course\u201d, I confidently reply.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">So, we walk around into the edge of the womens hall, as that day the mens was being disinfected, the sister says \u201dcan you please hold his penis, while I clean around?\u201d. This alone was shocking, the poor man had a Tumour and his testicle was Grapefruit sized, seeping and really difficult to see.  So, I look at the man, show my kindest eyes, then take hold. The sister was quick and thorough, cleaning, applying banages, showing compassion by vocally supporting the man.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">As we did this, sisters and female volunteers were passing, as it was right in the meeting point of the two halls, eyes being transfixed and trying not to look but unable to look away,  or, hide shock.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-large is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Remembering-662x1024.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-2502\" width=\"334\" height=\"517\" srcset=\"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Remembering-662x1024.jpg 662w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Remembering-194x300.jpg 194w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Remembering-768x1189.jpg 768w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Remembering-992x1536.jpg 992w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Remembering-1323x2048.jpg 1323w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Remembering-scaled.jpg 1654w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 334px) 100vw, 334px\" \/><figcaption>Really enjoyed buying a Chi with destitutee in the early evenings, watching the kids, still kids,  free\u2026 such majesty in the destitute. This was a postcard sent home.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Once complete, my Ego was massive, then the sister turned to me and said \u201dyou have been great, thank you, tomorrow we are cutting it out, can you help?\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Now, in a moment, the humbler ego was back, my internal dialogue went \u201dOh shit,  Rich, this is beyond you, they have no Surgeon, just a trainee Doctor from Japan, shit,  shit, shit, you can\u2019t say no,  but,  but\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Then after a second, it came to me \u201dOh, tomorrow is Thursday, that is Volunteers day off, so I won\u2019t be here,  sorry\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">The sister replied it was a shame, but she would find someone else to help her. My sense of readiness to face anything took a hit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Left the Sister, a trembling wreck!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">There was one man, who scream cried, his whole 2 days there, having brought him in, cleaned and showered him, his body was like he had collapsed in a pool, or had poured over him, acid, as his body had horrific wounds. This did not bring the \u2019fear\u2019 like previously described,  but, took a lot of reflection on whether it was OK to be relieved he died 45-48 hours later, as his cries filled the room with living despair, most had been graced with a gentle passage through, compared to this poor soul, he was literally tortured to death.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-large is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/118FC9E7-D9D7-476A-B439-394F56656E8F-880x1024.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-4014\" width=\"429\" height=\"499\"\/><figcaption>This was The Mother, in around 1995, would never have asked for a picture (but have one a friend sent me later,  I never requested, she looks poorly, but I treasure it). No eyes to Camera, <\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">So, laced amongst the bravery, I was too much of a self centred wimp, to help cut a mans hugely overgrown testicle out! It was magical learning ground there, and, the care, those passing,  beautiful.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">It is only now, that it feels right to share some of these experiences.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"Nirvana - Where Did You Sleep Last Night (Live On MTV Unplugged, 1993 \/ Unedited)\" width=\"525\" height=\"295\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/hEMm7gxBYSc?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><figcaption>That song, is a thing of utter poetic beauty, performed perfectly by Cobain<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Being immersed.  But, still a bit of a wimp! (cutting a mans ball off, probably leading to his death, was a step beyond my capacity back then, tough moment, but such a growth experience, pardon the unintended pun).<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Those sisters, the deepest blessings,  forever. <br><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Though the speech towards children, when doing a day as a Teaching assistant, to see what that was like, not good, way too harsh, didn\u2019t return, was deeply upset, they were from such poverty, yet soo beautifully dressed, truly inspiring and a touching experience &#8211; Singing 5 Little Ducks made my heart gush with joy.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">However, there was a harshness to the tone, that was beyond my limits, it was talked about, the Head Sister said \u201dThis is a harsh world, they need to be ready for it\u201d, my feeling was the opposite, that they should receive only kind, loving nurture, so that is what they mostly fill, bond, associate with from their very early schooling?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/C36EDD25-AE71-441C-AF81-8EE6DDD2CD20-1024x686.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-4007\" width=\"509\" height=\"341\"\/><figcaption>How can you ignore a message, so pure, so strong? Here they are, this is my cause.  Love. Only eyes to Camera, you want to Idolise her? Then only see her truly with \u201dThe Message\u201d.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201c<em>The whole of Mother Teresa\u2019s life and labor bore witness to the joy of loving, the greatness and dignity of every human person, the value of little things done faithfully and with love, and the surpassing worth of friendship with God.<\/em>\u201d  MotherTeresa.org<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-full is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/mother_teresa_baby.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-505\" width=\"517\" height=\"343\" srcset=\"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/mother_teresa_baby.jpg 640w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/mother_teresa_baby-300x199.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 517px) 100vw, 517px\" \/><figcaption>Much more fitting, had such Spirit. What a human. Celebrating the purity of work, Saint at work.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><br>Another Job tried, but once, was being a Rickshaw runner, one evening, was wandering and came across 4 runners in a square just off Chowringhee, so thought I\u2019d like to try that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Gestured, could I pay him 4-5 Rupees to run him around the square, he seemed to understand, then turned to the other runners and chatted, each tittering at various stages if their little chat, the Runner turned back to me and dropped his head to the right, grinning.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">So, moving to the Rickshaw, between the sticks, the runner steps aside, moves next to his friends. \u201dNaaaaa\u201d pointing at him to get on. The runner again turns and chats, one looking out, looking me up and down,  laughs, then he gets on.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Excited I pull off, like a tortoise! That is not light, and, difficult to get moving (guess normally you get shown!), so, yet again my Masculine Ego is momentarily shaken, but once moving, it was brilliant!<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-full is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/775D10E8-5108-4AFE-8C6C-45C1BF2E6E78.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-3507\" width=\"522\" height=\"346\"\/><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Walked to first turn, him grinning, his friends looking at me like I am both funny and insane! Then ran, this was hard, to control the handles over bumps, the balance, much respect to these people (who it seemed were treated like dirt, in the tone most took with them).<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">As I pulled his Rickshaw up, he got off, we shared a smile and I thanked him. His friends still smirking, at the event, my poor running, me! Lovely evening will never forget (maybe it was after Testicle day, to release my fear emotions!!!).<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-large is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/544D3B1E-A8FA-4B2A-B8FD-9809EA709B6F-1024x697.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-4000\" width=\"542\" height=\"368\"\/><figcaption>Members of the Missionaries of Charity, wearing protective face shields, distribute free snacks and tea to the poor in Kolkata, India, Aug. 26, 2020, during the COVID-19 pandemic. They distributed the food and tea after offering prayers to mark the 110th birthday of St. Teresa of Kolkata, founder of the Missionaries of Charity. (CNS photo\/Rupak De Chowdhuri, Reuters)<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Such complex life lessons. Look what life has done? Sisters brave enough to offer kindness in the most challenging conditions, forced by their own fear, or, the projected media fear, to cover themselves in masks, visors, gloves\u2026 The open face of \u201dThe Masters Of War\u201d imposing it\u2019s will over anybody it can.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-4-3 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"Eddie Vedder - Masters of War (Tribute Bob Dylan 30th Anniversary)\" width=\"525\" height=\"394\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/dwa2jK0xglk?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><figcaption>Vedder \u201dYou put a drug in my hand\u201d aptly changed from Dylans Gun\u2026<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-large is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Neck-1-1024x715.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-3965\" width=\"576\" height=\"402\" srcset=\"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Neck-1-1024x715.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Neck-1-300x210.jpg 300w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Neck-1-768x536.jpg 768w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Neck-1-1536x1073.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Neck-1-2048x1430.jpg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 576px) 100vw, 576px\" \/><figcaption>Similarly, destiny had me taking physical beatings (70\u201380 Assaults), whilst forced to wear a mask, often visor. This was my last assault, he needed taking to ground and dragging outside by his T-Shirt, 3Years 3Months 3Weeks 3Days (and change) in Level 3 Challenging Behaviour, ends December 2021<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-large is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Torso-1024x804.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-3964\" width=\"553\" height=\"434\" srcset=\"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Torso-1024x804.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Torso-300x236.jpg 300w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Torso-768x603.jpg 768w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Torso-1536x1206.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Torso-2048x1608.jpg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 553px) 100vw, 553px\" \/><figcaption>Laughing as taken, as this aged flesh, would now return on day off, in Kalighat, to help remove the Testicle! After above attack, told boss \u201dit\u2019s fine, he didn\u2019t even get me\u201d, soo I didn\u2019t even feel those injuries happen, left not a mark on him, the adrenaline and seeing fear as water, you see?<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-large is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/0D374058-FBCE-46E0-81C8-B4D3F83C3D4E-1024x1018.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-4430\" width=\"291\" height=\"290\" srcset=\"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/0D374058-FBCE-46E0-81C8-B4D3F83C3D4E-1024x1018.jpeg 1024w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/0D374058-FBCE-46E0-81C8-B4D3F83C3D4E-300x298.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/0D374058-FBCE-46E0-81C8-B4D3F83C3D4E-150x150.jpeg 150w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/0D374058-FBCE-46E0-81C8-B4D3F83C3D4E-768x764.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/0D374058-FBCE-46E0-81C8-B4D3F83C3D4E-1536x1528.jpeg 1536w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/0D374058-FBCE-46E0-81C8-B4D3F83C3D4E-2048x2037.jpeg 2048w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/0D374058-FBCE-46E0-81C8-B4D3F83C3D4E-100x100.jpeg 100w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 291px) 100vw, 291px\" \/><figcaption>Though this old guy has very quick reflexes, but, the biting and spitting was tough to take.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-large is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/DC0405C4-84B2-4EE7-9A52-911E945FCC68-1024x878.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-4437\" width=\"491\" height=\"420\" srcset=\"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/DC0405C4-84B2-4EE7-9A52-911E945FCC68-1024x878.jpeg 1024w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/DC0405C4-84B2-4EE7-9A52-911E945FCC68-300x257.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/DC0405C4-84B2-4EE7-9A52-911E945FCC68-768x659.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/DC0405C4-84B2-4EE7-9A52-911E945FCC68-1536x1317.jpeg 1536w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/06\/DC0405C4-84B2-4EE7-9A52-911E945FCC68-2048x1756.jpeg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 491px) 100vw, 491px\" \/><figcaption>Excellent yellowing, once healing underway, this is Macrophage Activity, Budwig knew, so now my family will.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Once you experience, the reality of your fears, like mine above (there was more, it was vicious, but full moon?), you realise, they were never worth troubling your inner calm over. The lovely guy who did this (many times) to me, was shown love, care, understanding and forgiveness, straight after he had calmed enough not to attack again! <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph\"><strong><em>Like Kalighat, being attacked you can be nowhere but the present.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">On the day Vaccine Mandates became enforced, two colleagues were forced from their jobs, that day I resigned from a job and client I loved, in solidarity, as I could not work somewhere staff were forced to take \u201dTest\u201d medicine they would otherwise not.  Goodbye, masters of war.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">This fearless spirit was whispered to me, from within Kalighat, Home Of The Pure Heart (Nirmal Hriday). You all have this Spirit, know it these days.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/09FE60EA-8ECE-493C-9887-55E8ADCBBF36.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-4001\" width=\"668\" height=\"437\"\/><figcaption>Look at the sheer,  forceful, powerful message in the picture, using \u201dMaterial\u201d her image, to simply point\u2026 noticed this is the only time she looks at Camera, no Idolatry, only Gods Message of Love and Compassion.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Foshy_Joni_1995-1024x699.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-2496\" width=\"674\" height=\"460\" srcset=\"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Foshy_Joni_1995-1024x699.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Foshy_Joni_1995-300x205.jpg 300w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Foshy_Joni_1995-768x524.jpg 768w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Foshy_Joni_1995-1536x1048.jpg 1536w, https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/05\/Foshy_Joni_1995.jpg 1712w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 674px) 100vw, 674px\" \/><figcaption>Back home, in the Summer of \u201895, telling stories and zoning dear friend out, regaining some weight! Natural Cobain look, Keralan and Sri Lankan sun not bleech! This me has gone\u2026<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-wp-embed is-provider-choose-life wp-block-embed-choose-life\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<blockquote class=\"wp-embedded-content\" data-secret=\"KUZJ4G0ezr\"><a href=\"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/index.php\/2022\/05\/13\/the-terton-who-stole-my-rucksack\/\">The Terton Who Stole My Rucksack<\/a><\/blockquote><iframe loading=\"lazy\" class=\"wp-embedded-content\" sandbox=\"allow-scripts\" security=\"restricted\" style=\"position: absolute; visibility: hidden;\" title=\"\u201cThe Terton Who Stole My Rucksack\u201d \u2014 Choose Life\" src=\"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/index.php\/2022\/05\/13\/the-terton-who-stole-my-rucksack\/embed\/#?secret=VHPWJUyv44#?secret=KUZJ4G0ezr\" data-secret=\"KUZJ4G0ezr\" width=\"525\" height=\"296\" frameborder=\"0\" marginwidth=\"0\" marginheight=\"0\" scrolling=\"no\"><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>As a 23 year old young man (old boy, felt truly), destiny took me to work in the home of the dying destitute. On the way to Thailand, we were in Calcutta, and, was really struck, by the way some volunteers described the work, so a month later, returned to volunteer. Let Every Action Of &hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/index.php\/2022\/05\/21\/what-are-you-soo-scared-of\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;What are you soo scared of?&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[48],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3992","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-fun"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3992","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3992"}],"version-history":[{"count":61,"href":"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3992\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4975,"href":"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3992\/revisions\/4975"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3992"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3992"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chooselife.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3992"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}